Stuck Spinning, Mini Goal Update and a Starship Photo


starship exodus carnival photograph by fallenpeach

Confession time: I am currently stuck spinning. All throughout March I was really excited for April. REALLY EXCITED. I knew the weather would be warmer, I would be more motivated, I could get a lot of things done. But here we are, a third of the way through April (give or take) and I’m struggling. Spinning my wheels making to do lists that don’t ever seem to get anything crossed off of them. This is the part you don’t see in my Meetup posts. It doesn’t happen every month, but lately it seems to be a theme.

Part of my trouble is that I work a 9-5 and I can’t seem to either a} get up early enough to work before work or b} have any energy left when I get home from work. I try to cram all of the things I want to do into my two days off but it doesn’t work that way. I know I’ve mentioned this before and I know that this is something that others struggle with as well. That point where burnout is on the horizon and we are just trying to skate by until we can push it back.

So here’s where I stand on my goals and plans for April. I have been successfully sleeping more. This is a good first step. I force myself into bed with my book between 10 and 10:30 every evening and am usually able to get up between 7 and 7:30, which is a good half an hour to an hour earlier than I was getting up in March. Baby Steps.

I have put together the initial group of photos and pieces for my tablet portfolio. I still need to cut down on photos and bring in more graphic design, but it is getting there.

I have a list of craft fairs to decide upon for September, but still can’t find any for May or June.

… Project Life has taken a serious backseat to everything else. I really wanted to do this project. I wanted to document our first 5 years of marriage and I started out really really good. But I have this feeling that all of March is going to fit on a two page spread. I’m okay with this, but it makes me a little bit sad. I really haven’t been taking photos and we haven’t been having as many adventures as we would like. Other things are taking over.

The point is that I need to get back to FOCUSING and not making myself feel overwhelmed. I may need to cut down to one project a week instead of a day and see where that goes. But this Saturday or Sunday I’m still going to try and get as much done on my massive list as humanly possible. Next week I will start with a project a week. Weekends will still be a very full problem though. That’s what I need to work on.

AND SO. I will filter my projects. I will decide what can truly wait and what needs to be done right away. I will FOCUS my energies instead of re-writing lists. AND I WILL NOT BURNOUT.

Are you overwhelming yourself? How do you deal with the stress?

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